Thursday, January 16, 2014

That was a wonderful Coma

Six years ago, when I was still working in Sochi, I had to use the train every day. You buy a token and give that to the girl who has the control to the pass. You drop the token and she pushes a button then you’re good to go.

This was a part of my life down on this wonderful city. It was because of this that I found the woman of my life— a wonderful, yet funny experience I have to tell my sons.

This girl who controls the pass have been watching and observing me secretly. I never cared about it not when I looked back from the train and saw her smiling. From then on, I had this habit of watching her secretly, thinking what could there be with me that she keeps looking at.

I pondered.

One Friday afternoon, I did not expect that I’d be robbed. A tall guy took my bag and pushed me over the rail. My head hit the metal and that’s what I can only remember. I was in a coma after that.

When I woke up from this short coma, my family were there. I can remember the whole scene from left to right. My sister was on my left, smiling. My parent is on the far left; dad is smiling and mom is crying. On my right was my little sister, holding a stuffed toy. I felt shocked about the accident.

But I learned the true story. Someone had to jump into the rail and had me carried to safety— before the train comes and shred me to pieces.

She told me everything. I sat in awe. She was brave! Well, she looked beautiful, but after it, she even looked more beautiful to me.

For three consecutive days, she came to visit me. That was the time I fell in love with her. I would wait for her in the morning, but after some time, she never came back.

After my recovery, I thought I’m still in coma—it’s my heart. I was just so caught I couldn’t erase her into my mind.

So one day, instead of dropping a coin, I dropped a ring. She looked up, shocked, but smiling. I knelt down and asked her if I could ask her a question.

She agreed.

<This was earlier posted on my Tumblr>

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

2013 and some Adjectives

When I knew I got no time to write a review anymore, I threw myself on the bed and asked what’s wrong with me. But in order not to ruin the holidays, I decided to let the days pass by, chose to enjoy the time with my family and friends, and planned to better indulge the rest of the day doing what I don’t usually do in Baguio. But looking at how I spent the holidays, I found it rather irritating. I thought I faced the television and the computer most of the time, and ONLY did get out when I knew the time was already running fast. But whatever I say, 2013 is forever gone.

1. What are the things I did in 2013 that I haven’t done before?

I found this question hard to answer. I couldn’t remember anything. Thanks to my journal and to Facebook and Twitter, I got them scribbled.

a) It was my first time to go to a book bazaar. I made a reader in me. I bought books like never before: novels, poems and essay books, art books, and some literary selfies. Today, I got a collection of them, and I believe I need to buy a cabinet soon.

b) I created a literary blog (Taludturan) in Tumblr. I began to write poems again and was able to post/write more or less  50 poems this year.

c) I was able to follow several actions in tennis, table tennis, chess, basketball,  and football! Became a fan of Andy, Rafa, Masha, S. Williams, GMs Wesley, Aronian, Karjakin, and WC GM Carlsen, Azkals (of course), Barca, Gilas, Ma Long, WH, Zhang, Xu Xin, and a lot more.

d) I never reviewed and stayed up late like I did this year. Academics for the win. This is not an interesting topic. Skip.

e) It was my first time to take an Accounting exam without any review. The sad truth is, it was not for the heck of the experience, so I got a wasay!

f) My first time to go and spend some time in Camp John Hay, Riverside resort in Asin, and Pangasinan specifically BFAR. It was my first time to hold a sea cucumber, and be left at home for a field trip. Thanks for the second chances! Hahaha.

g) I guess I travelled a lot this year. I spent some days in the mountains of Quirino, enjoyed their falls and rivers there. I went to Aurora also and lucky to have “rock” hopping. Mehehe. I also had a time to enjoy the Anguib beach in Sta. Ana, Cagayan, and swam with the seaweeds.

2. Did I meet any of my important goals in 2013? What are my goals for next year?

I thank God for what I have become, for what I was able to achieve, and for everything I am holding onto.

2013 was a very fruitful year, and I say cheers to everyone who is part of this AWESOME life!

I maintained a blog! I became more aware of the blogosphere, made some friends with a number of bloggers, and was even fortunate to join Saranggola Blog Awards. I maintain three blogs today, this blog and the other two. Writing has become more fun this year.

Academics might not be so full of sweet successes, but what's important is that I passed and learned new things.

I stayed healthy and fit. It was this year that I couldn't remember the last time I was sick. Thanks to the enormous amount of water I am drinking and to my table tennis family. Sweating with you guys made it even better!

I developed a sense of positiveness and easygoingness. More friends and acquaintances were established. More food and small talks came along the way. Thanks to the Fine Art of Small Talk by Debra Fine, conversations have never been this effective.

I had fun but also had become silly. Cracking jokes were often so having other people hate me (us friends) was not a question. But making people abhor you so much feels so wrong, so at the end of the day, you try to make peace. 

All these being said, there is still a list of things I got to work out this 2014. I need to be more organized and be more understanding. I have to write and read more. I wish 2014 to be just fine or even better.

3. Did anyone close to me die?

My uncle. Lung cancer. My Lolo. Old age.

4. What countries did I visit?

I wish to travel the whole of ASEAN, Japan, Canada, and some other places but it’s not yet time.

5. What would I like to have in 2014 that I lacked in 2013.

An iPhone and pretty good savings.

6. What dates from 2013 will remain etched upon my memory, and why?

None? Maybe 11/12/13. Apocalyptic. I am never good at remembering experiences through dates. So friends, don’t feel less happy when I forget your birthdays. Don’t worry. When you call for a dinner, I’ll be there. And I might consider giving you a gift the next time, not if I forget.

7. What was my biggest achievement this year? What was my biggest failure?

I don’t know. There are several cakes and there also mess ups. Winning CATCUP1 maybe. My biggest failure is believing in a lie. But things were already fixed. Peace is what I want.

8. What was the best thing I bought?

These books and this small table. 

9. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Mama, papa, at mga kapatid for supporting me in all my endeavors, damay na rin ang mga small wants ko. Hehe. My friends for just keeping the lawn green. Sirs and ma’ams for appreciating the little things that I do.

10. Where did most of my money go?

According to my financial journal, most of my money was spent mostly in rent, clothing, food, and then books.

11. What did I get really, really, really excited about?

The development of Wesley So, Azkals, Gilas, and the games of my tennis idols.

12.   What song will always remind me of 2013?

Dreaming by Kim Soo Hyuk of Dream High. When I heard the song, I felt the emotion. It’s Korean but the title itself gives a hint of what the singer feels. This song is the most played in my playlist.

13.  Compared to this time last year, am I:

a) Happier or sadder?


b) Thinner or fatter?

Fatter! When people begin to notice it, I would reply what one of my profs in Accounting would always say: I’m getting richer!

b) Richer or poorer?


14.   What do I wish I’d done more of?

Preparing green and leafy breakfast, vegetable drinks!

15.  What do I wish I’d done less of?

Eating bread. Facebooking.

16. How did I spend Christmas?

Family reunion at Tugue. Visited Anguib beach.

16. Did I fall in love in 2013?

Fell in love with myself, and the great things that came along the way.

17. What was my greatest musical discovery?

Playing instruments once in a while takes you to different times of your past. It also makes you dream of the future.

18. What did I want and get?

A watch.

19. What did I want and not get?

TFIOS by John Green. Please, buy me one. :(

20. What did I do on my birthday?

We celebrated!

21. What one thing would have made my year immeasurably more satisfying?

Being able to beat kuya Mabs just a single game. Wahaha

22. Who kept me sane?

The ghost in my room, my friends who read my scribblings. 

23. Who was the best new person I met?

You just love the way people differ from each other: the way they look at you, the way they look at themselves, and the way they look at the beauty of life. They are the best in their own way.

24. A valuable life lesson I learned in 2013:

Keep going on, but enjoy the moment. Don't go to a place for selfies or Facebook's sake. 

25. A song lyric that sums up my year:

When the day that lies ahead of me
Seems impossible to face
When someone else instead of me
Always seems to know the way....
Then I look at you
And the world's all right with me
Just one look at you
And I know it's gonna be
A lovely day

– Lovely Day, Bill Withers